Missing Bob

The last week has been particularly difficult. I have cried as much this week, if not more, than when Bob first died. I'm not sure the exact cause of it, except I think the shock of it all is wearing off, and the reality of it is hitting me. I can't tell you how many times a day I have a thought like; "Oh, I have to tell Bob about this, he'll love it", or "I have to get home, Bob is waiting for me". Then the reality hits, there is no one to go home to (except my dog, Gabby), there is no one to tell. Still, I have so much in my life. First and foremost; my Savior, Jesus Christ. I wouldn't have have made it through this without Him by my side. Secondly, my kids, who are so supportive and loving. Third, friends (that I haven't had much time for during the last few years, but am now reconnecting with), lastly; a job I enjoy doing. God has been good to me. When I start to have a pity party I remember what Haiti was like, or what others are going through. Phil. 2:3-8 says "with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves, do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others. Have this attitude in yourselves, which was also in Christ Jesus, who, although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied Himself, taking the form of a bond-sevant, and being made in the likeness of men, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross". My prayer is that in spite of this grief, I can focus on loving and helping others and telling them about Christ. I need help in this endeavor. If you read this blog, please pray for me during this difficult time.