Fighting Depression

I was reading a mailer from Kaiser's Grief Support that talked about common problems at certain times in the grief process. It seems I am right on schedule. About 2 days before the 6 month mark of Bob's death I started feeling very depressed. At first I thought I was getting sick because I felt so exhausted. But the lethargy continued and for weeks I could hardly get out of bed. It was all I could do to go to work each day. My thoughts were foggy, and I had a hard time concentrating. I cried at the drop of a hat. I didn't feel like eating (very strange for me). Then I read the newsletter that said depression seems to hit around the 6 month mark and can last up to 6 months. At least I know I'm "normal", which is comforting in a weird way! My middle son also complained to me that he was feeling the say way. I shared that this was normal. While it is "normal", it is still very distressing. I am not prone to depression. I generally am very energetic and motivated to get things done. So as the dishes, laundry and duties piled up, I became distressed. I cried out to God in prayer... "Please lift these feelings"! I read my bible every day. I forced myself to do things around the house. That was 6 weeks ago, and I am feeling slow bits of recovery. I have started cleaning again and unfortunately, my appetite is coming back. I'm not crying as often! On Bob's birthday (last sunday) I actually felt periods of joy remembering some wonderful birthdays we had shared together. I think God allowed me to go through this so that I can relate to others when they express depressed feelings. It's all part of the process. I, for one, am ready to get on with this process of grief and have a normal life again. The problem is that it will never be "normal" again, and part of grief is adjusting to that idea. Oh well, I'm rambling. Just needed to do a little venting. I pray for others who are going through this difficult and taxing process. God is there for us, cry out to Him!